so i found some old poetry

Went through a few spiral binders in my room and found them. They brought back good memorys so here ya go:)

Sweet, Soft, Beautiful, and Mine:))

sweet, so sweet, are the taste of her lips.

soft, so soft, are the tips of her fingers.

beautiful, so beautiful, are the colors of her eyes.

sweetly, so sweetly, i call out her name.

softly, so softly, i kiss her forehead when she sleeps.

beautiful, so beautiful, are the thoughts in my mind.

mine, oh mine, i can't believe she is mine.

cleaning out my closet

After days of getting rid of my pain, struggles, and problems
after completely making myself feel better
i took a look in yours... i'm not sure why...
maybe i thought i could help you be better...
feel better because i can see the pain you've been hiding lately..
i open the door and fall back suprised by all the things i recognized
all the things i thought i'd solved the things ive felt so good about lately
i found them in your heart..
after a few moments of looking around in shock it hit me
i havn't done anything to myself to make things better
you have
you tucked your own problems away just to make room for mine
you've filled your life with my problems and asked nothing in return from me
your so amazing and i promise to one day return the favor,
i give my all to you.
(written about nobody... because nobody did it... so don't ask)

In time of need

so in my time of need...
when i really...
really just need... you
when my heart has sunk down so far..so deep...
even i don't know how to feel it..
staring into my empty needy eyes
you say to me
you know how to make it come back
you know how to bring me back from this slumber of depression
i place my heart my soul my mind into your hands
but when i look for you...
when i reach for you to restore my happyness...
you reach for him....
so yet again here i am in this darkened room
i gave you my heart and now you've left
i thought i couldn't get worse then not feeling it inside me...
but now in my mind i know its not even there... it was stolen.

abandoned

In a room of glass shattering silence,
with my shadow I stand alone.
Abandoned, left behind, thrown away,
like a dog with a rotten bone.
Surrounded by darkness of the unknown,
fear seeping through my soul.
My mind falling prey to tricks of the dark,
it's seduction taking a murderous toll.
Calling out for you time after time,
the results still the same.
Nothing but a distant echo,
making a mockery of your name.
Now engulfed in a sea of despair,
longing for deaths final boast.
Your presence never gracing again,
my heart......now a distant ghost.
Emotionless I stand here with no life,
a puppet on a set of strings.
Awaiting for master to take me away,
hoping death is the worst he brings.
In a room of glass shattering silence,
with my shadow I stand alone.
Abandoned, left behind, thrown away,
like a dog with a rotten bone.
All hope a faded memory,
all light a forgotten dream.
Loneliness....my only achievement,
comforting..it now seems!

my bad side:\

with bloody knuckles i tear into the room
beating on the walls the stains of my frustrations left as proof
just as my eyes see myself inside a reflection..
i crumble to the ground... in shame
yet again i have become an uncontrolable me
beyond love.... past care.. and hope
its been years since i've let this side of myself out
when will it be chained away for ever?
when will i be able to be unloved without the violence
with bloody knuckles i wipe my tears

just try to compare me again

cant you be more like

{insert words here}

and the answer is yes

and why the hell do I care

why should I ignore

my bones and soul

for you

who tell me there is nowhere to go

except for filling your hunger

to find my demise

and call it pride

I'll agree to lunch on me

and you can eat your wasted words